Celebrating 50 Years of Life

 

50: A number not to be feared

50: A number not to be feared

Today is my 50th birthday and I choose to celebrate my own survival and prosperity this day. I claim every good thing for myself. I look forward to a whole new decade of discovery and growth. I thank the universe for helping me to get over my self [self and negative perceptions of my personality and place in the world] and my obsession with failure and poverty. I embrace my new world. I embrace my own personal “new age”.

I thank Louise Hay for helping me to get here. I thank my mother and my father and my entire family for their love and wisdom. I thank my life partner for being here for me and holding my hand for the past year while I walked through the dark valley of my own making in my own despair and self hatred. I am a wonderfully lucky and blessed man. I am grateful for my father’s visit this past summer and his acceptance and love for me. I am grateful for a roof over my head, food in my refrigerator and cupboards, opportunities surrounding me in every direction, for political freedom, the chance to run my own business, the health to be able to walk 5 miles a day, for stopping smoking this year, for wonderful new destinations that I have discovered, and the blessings of technology that make the Internet and this blog possible.

Turning fifty years old is not scary at all. It is the fear of turning fifty that is really scary. It is a fear that can destroy you; It is a fear that can drive you crazy, but only if you let it. Embrace the possibility of this moment and your future. Embrace The Concept and The Reality of Now.

I Am Grateful

D and R State Park

D and R State Park

I Am Grateful For:

Not drinking to excess

Not smoking anymore

Being able to walk 5 miles a day

Thinking in new ways

New friends

Learning to release old hurts, slights, resentments and jealousies

New positive habits

New authors I have found: Louise Hay, Deepak Chopra, Salman Rushdie

New ways of publishing online: WordPress [new to me at least]

Coming of fall

Coming of Christmas

Public Parks: D & R Canal State Park [see photo above]

Why I Started Walking

My Path

My Path

 

I have always wanted to write a real blog, you know one that was truly personal and not a business blog like my others about travel, restaurant reviews and websites. This is what this blog is all about; my random thoughts that come to me on my long daily walks that are doing so much for my body, mind and spirit.

I walk about 5 miles a day along the banks of the Delaware River. It is a marvelous place to walk because the path is well maintained and everyone is free to use it and the scenery is so beautiful. The walks are great for my physical health, but they also are doing wonders for my mental health and my spiritual well being.

I will reveal something here that is very personal, but I want to share this because I think it might help someone. I started walking because my life seemed hopeless a short time ago. I am in the process of walking out of a severe depression that hit last year when my former classmates from high school invited me to my 30th Class Reunion. For some insane reason, this invitation and the thought of going sent me into a six month long downward spiral that I thought I would never recover from. In my desperation, a friend of mine recommended the book “You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise Hay. It helped me to grab a hold of the few strands of reality left in my life and I have been slowly walking out into the light since then.

My walks are in a very true sense, saving my life. These words are a record of my steps on this walk.

Gotta go for now, I am off to do my walk and to learn a bit more about myself and the universe.

Peace.