The Good, The Bad and the Ugly

Study in Gray, Black and White [and rust]

Study in Gray, Black and White (and rust)

Recently one of my blog members, Paul/Pacmac stated:

I have come to believe that just thinking or focusing on what is good or beautiful is no different than focusing on what is bad or ugly.

That is fine, but how is one to keep oneself out of depression with that frame of mind? If we follow that line of thinking then, there is nothing depressing or bad about depression.

I don’t think I can live that way. You can read more of our discussion that started on the usefulness of Deepak Chopras work in dealing with depression.

Deepak Chopra . Perception . Depression

Study in Gray

Study in Gray

Sometimes when I read Deepak Chopra, I am reminded of the old saying: vanity, vanity, all is vanity. If everything around us is simply perception, why then do we even bother doing anything, why did he bother to write the book. If there is nothing that exists outside of us, then why go on? Is everything in the world going on for just my benefit? Why then is there so much going on that I cannot pay attention to all of it?

I am grateful for the wisdom I am finding in Chopra, but sometimes the questions that his writings bring up get awfully BIG in my head. Sometimes these questions are not good for my recovery from depression. I am grateful that I have the ability to stay calm and objective to sort through these things.

Letting Go: Challenges of a Perfectionist

Yellow Flower from the Garden District in New Orleans

Yellow Flower from the Garden District in New Orleans

I think I probably could have called this Blog “Letting Go” because on the spiritual journey that I am on it seems that I am coming up on the need to do this over and over again, each time in slightly different ways. My need to let go is very strong evidently.

I have always felt driven to always tell people exactly what I think about them and about the best course that I think they should take. The problem is that, not everyone wants to hear my opinion all the time and sometimes I just need to shut up and let it go. I have to trust the universe to get the message out without thinking that I am the sole messenger of truth or wisdom.

I may be driven to perfection, but I don’t have to use it as an instrument of torture over myself, my family, my friends or my associates. I have to learn to let things work themselves out sometimes or simply fall where they may and find their own way.

I am grateful that I am learning to temper my perfectionism. I am grateful that I am learning how to express it. I am grateful that I am learning to let go of my perfectionism. I am grateful that there is a wonder and a beauty to the world around me that is an imperfect world.

Learning about perfectionism is learning about forgiveness.